My heart feel something wrong

1 month ago,I just know a friend that I call him handsome(Chris.L). He was special to me ,of course he still study.

We are friend since last month,and sometimes we chat at MSN,sometime we chat at fb chat box...we share our life things,but sometime I was so pressure on him,coz he use to kidding with me.Haiz..!!

One day,I was online and chatting with my friends.He was online and chatting with me.In sudden,he said he got something to told me that he said he fell for me and I was surprice that why he can fell for me which he already know I was in relationship. He would give me some time to think and wish me to be his girl. I didn't wish to trust his word,but in my heart I didnt recognize I like him.

Till Last saturday (21/8/2010), I was having lunch with him. LoLx...I can't take it his jokes,bully me TT^TT.....but I like it. We had our lunch at genting,Greenlane.

After our lunch,he droped me back home. In that whole day,I was thinking of him...and I can't forget his smile. I told my mom "Am I weird?" My mom would said "I know you are smiling when you think someone,you think too much".

At night,my head still counln't forget his smile. I was outside with my bf yet I still can think Chris.L. I finally know my heart,actually I like him when we 1st know each other. I don't like sweet talk nor love word,but I don't know what I'm doing now. Am I really like him?...I feel bad for my bf ,coz we been together for 8 months and I love him.

Chris.L said he will wait my anwer after my SPM but I can feel that maybe he was playing tricks on me.It so complicated and I'm dissapointed myself for being this.And I don't want my bf dissapointed in this.

But I won't think too much.Now only know I have to workhard for my career and for my SPM. I wish I can get some A's. At least 2 or 3.

(I wish Chris.L have a successful life,and keep in touch. I like you C.L and I love you my H.H. I want show you both,I am weird girl and different,very hard to like or love someone.)