Monday, August 23, 2010

My heart feel something wrong

1 month ago,I just know a friend that I call him handsome(Chris.L). He was special to me ,of course he still study.

We are friend since last month,and sometimes we chat at MSN,sometime we chat at fb chat box...we share our life things,but sometime I was so pressure on him,coz he use to kidding with me.Haiz..!!

One day,I was online and chatting with my friends.He was online and chatting with me.In sudden,he said he got something to told me that he said he fell for me and I was surprice that why he can fell for me which he already know I was in relationship. He would give me some time to think and wish me to be his girl. I didn't wish to trust his word,but in my heart I didnt recognize I like him.

Till Last saturday (21/8/2010), I was having lunch with him. LoLx...I can't take it his jokes,bully me TT^TT.....but I like it. We had our lunch at genting,Greenlane.

After our lunch,he droped me back home. In that whole day,I was thinking of him...and I can't forget his smile. I told my mom "Am I weird?" My mom would said "I know you are smiling when you think someone,you think too much".

At night,my head still counln't forget his smile. I was outside with my bf yet I still can think Chris.L. I finally know my heart,actually I like him when we 1st know each other. I don't like sweet talk nor love word,but I don't know what I'm doing now. Am I really like him?...I feel bad for my bf ,coz we been together for 8 months and I love him.

Chris.L said he will wait my anwer after my SPM but I can feel that maybe he was playing tricks on me.It so complicated and I'm dissapointed myself for being this.And I don't want my bf dissapointed in this.

But I won't think too much.Now only know I have to workhard for my career and for my SPM. I wish I can get some A's. At least 2 or 3.

(I wish Chris.L have a successful life,and keep in touch. I like you C.L and I love you my H.H. I want show you both,I am weird girl and different,very hard to like or love someone.)

Friday, November 6, 2009

Now I have knw



I finally knw the answer by myself
and
I have to let it go!!


My ex(teong leong) didnt said anything to me
but I knw what he up to.
And he didnt do what he has promise me,plus he didnt love me anymore

What I have promise him,I really did it and wait it

but

he didnt

I love him and with cares but he forget what he said(did)

当我又等待,另一天有这样过去...夜里又醒来,觉得被全世界遗弃...当我不明白,为何爱会忽然离去...沉默的呐喊,听见的却只有自己...

(When I was waiting,Another day has over...woke up again at night,(and)think to be deserted by whole world...When I dont understand,why will be off suddenly...The silent one shouts loudly,but hearded only is itself)
This is a girl name Sabrina,she write this coz she also have the feel of it.

Last time she dont knw my bf is her bf,thn she one day has suspect that her bf got lots of girl out side include me.
O.T.L last time told me,he didnt have gf b4,so he wants to be with me
but end up he find Sabrina in March 2009
They start their relationship on April at my b'day.
He hurt my feelings
He hurt me for 4 months,couldn't eat and sleep,plus I was sick in this 4 months
I block him
After this 4 months I add his network back,he got online
and he recover with me..that time my sickness is gone
After the merdeka perade,he gone again.
He told me he go thailand but when back he didnt told me.
He dint respon with me 3 months till now.
That day 1st of nov,I go prangin find him,he promote the P1 wimax fair
He act he really dont want respon with me,coz he got new gf name Sabrina.
I was so hurt after I saw his friendster put him and her gf on it.
Haiz...b4 that I want to take my revenge but end up i think i juz take a slap on his face one.
I will wait one day I see hom again.
Now his gf Sabrina knows the truth of him.
And I wish she could over with him too..
But this few days she so nice to me and being my sister
I knw what she doing,she try to take some result about him and me.
She said she also get hurt from him,
but to me..is a lie
coz my ex love her.
Thn I told her what to do,Revenge?
She said that is up to me and planning.
But end up I dont think I can take the revenge
I told myself
"Whatever things has passed,let it be over. Make yourself a happy life and not to think of revenge coz you may hurt urself too.Dont think the person as your enemy,coz we still can be friends"
That's all I can forget about him
Juz wait him one day and slap him
That's all
That is my simple revenge and I will in peace

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The story

昨夜回家比较晚,可能是下了几天雨的缘故,感觉天气凉凉的,很熟悉的感觉,熟悉到我窒息。晕旋…. 几天雨之后天气便凉了,我也好象更寂寞了,我会对任何人笑,但是总感觉笑容里面空空的,好象少了点什么。字里行间全是淡淡的哀愁。
很少在和网友聊天了。但是我还是会每天挂QQ,看着上面寥寥无几的人在我聊天,我可以从他们的言语里,分享到一点点的快乐。(那些曾经的朋友,你们自己保重吧) 偶尔也会有朋友约我出去逛街。我便去,累了便丢下朋友,自己在某处等着。等朋友回来,然后一起回家。我只是不想一个人回到空荡荡家里听父母唠叨。
在等朋友的时候,我会在等待的时间里去想念她,跟她在一起的情景,每当一想起她我就又是开心又有一种顾忌,不知道为什么? 我真的很爱她,我就是想让她知道我是真的爱她,在以前从没有这样爱过一个人,也许缘份没到吧就是现在我也不知道她是不是陪我度过一生的女人,我希望是可爱情不是我一个人能掌握的。

Monday, October 12, 2009

You always is my butterfly
















Those is my special best frenz and best frenz






You all my Forever frenz






Name : Collin(lonely),L.G.Keow(siaocabo3),K.S.Zou(siaocabo4),C.M.Li(siao cabo2),L.H.Hui,W.Loong,Happy Wei and P.Yuin.






You all the best.Frenz forever oo...dont forget me and our Friendship. I love you all..



You all like my Butterfly >v6






Especially Collin,you are the best in SBF.You help me a lot,explan a lot for let me to forget all bad things.Plus you are cute to me,and sometimes i really miss you when you busy your assignment or forget(seldom) chat with me.Till last night 11th oct,I suddenly call u...I heard ur voice,thn I say "I long time didnt hear ur sound" actually is I miss you is not only ur perfect voice.



I dont knw why,last night when I heard u talk to me...ur deep voice just deep in my heart...I whole day like....???



What am I talking about??!!! LOLX...






Till next morning,I go to school also can think of Collin..



My frenz zou juz said "gai liao u..."



LOLX...



AM I normal?? I can say that,I think him whole day.....>n6 ???



ok lo...but at least he is my best frenz...his nice



When 1st time knw him...I thought his attitute same with other guy who is "Bu kit"...coz his pic look same...but one day he came to penang for funeral,thn his chance that he can meet me....so we meet somewhere near gurney plaza...thn we walk to gurney.On the way to gurney,we go to the thai shop take a look.Thn I saw a cute key chain that is Hello Kitty (As u can see up there got 3 pic of Hello Kitty key chain,that I use this key chain as him.When I miss him,I will take a look at this Hello Kitty.It always beside me,no metter where I go...I also bring along with me. His is my Precious).Actually i want pay myself but he pay for me...I shock...o_o



I only can say is "Thank you"...






Then back home,I think about him thn said actually he is a nice guy...



The second day I curi curi meet him again for helping me math.



He tough me math and explan actually I quite confuse but I understand what he said.



Till my mom call me and notice I curi go out de...she call me take bus,reach home b4 3.30pm.



Then he company me to the Bus-stop and wait for bus,wait about 5 to 10min. Till the bus has stop,I go up and standing.The bus start moving and he say bye to me,I stand there see him turn back and walk away...that makes me like so bad coz i see him walk alone to his frenz house...



At bus I think myself "When can I meet him again,he's going back to his hometown by tmr.Very long ka can meet le..haiz".






The time pass very fast...



This is my feeling to him...I guess...
Like he is my Special butterfly.....
Lolx...I think too much..=p
ok till here lah...

undang pass

hahaha...my undang pass de....Yes^^
my result is
Bahagian A : 14/15
Bahagian B : 25/25
Bahagian C : 8/10
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47/50
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Gonna wait after final exam thn go for car Teori.....
So can go out with my frenz lo....>v<